There are things I want to distraction & things I never want. Let the y-axis be the sex feelings of A & B. Let the x-axis be time. The equation solved for A is a sine wave. The equation solved for B is a cosine wave. A & B cross at zero interest in the other’s charms. Imagine a graph: the person who lives in my brain desires that which is unknown, until she looks left when she should have looked right to see a car. She started a race, but her feet were problems that concrete was unable to solve. A woman stood behind another woman & at an angle their bodies merged & looked a lump sum of one body, flesh open on the flanks. Thus C & D are solved to be collinear — chest to chest, hand to hand, eye to eye. Some people have bodies in them. Some have a trapezius muscle that needs a clean cut to release. I solved an equation: I want a body. Not my body, not yours. I just want a body. My equation postulates: E’s angles puncture F’s curves, E’s hand is in F’s lungs, E’s feet sink into F’s stomach. A body is a razor to wash & leave undried. Imagine a graph: not a man, but a body to run my fingers through, a torso to wrap with arms. Imagine: desire is a lion in tall grass. Imagine: a body is a giraffe, is a smooth mannequin, without head or feet.Sirianna Helleloid is a production accountant by day and by night is mostly asleep; somewhere between the two she writes. She’s had poems in Kettle Blue Review, Catapult, and JAKE. Her manuscript &maybe was recently a finalist for the 2023 Lexi Rudnitsky First Book Prize. You can find her on Twitter at @elelelelloyd.
